i know this is a gardening blog but from time to time i will share my heart and some things that matter most in life. along those lines i'd like to quote from oswald chambers' book, my utmost for his highest. these words struck me the first time i read through them and i continue to go back to them lately and ponder them.
"...fretting means getting out at elbows mentally or spiritually. it is one thing to say "fret not" but a very different thing to have such a disposition that you find yourself able not to fret. it sounds so easy to talk about "resting in the lord" and "waiting patiently for him" until the nest is upset-until we live, as so many are doing, in the tumult and anguish, is it possible then to rest in the lord?... resting in the lord does not depend on external circumstances at all, but on your relationship to God himself.
fussing always ends in sin. we imagine that a little anxiety and worry are an inclination of how really wise we are; it is much more an indication of how really wicked we are. fretting springs from a determination to get our own way. our lord never worried and he was never anxious, because he was not "out" to realize his own ideas; he was "out" to realize God's ideas. fretting is wicked if you are a child of God.
... all our fret and worry is caused by calculating without God."
i go to the garden alone, while the dew is still on the roses... from an old hymn we used to sing when i was a child. i find peace and rest in prayer and i find i pray a lot in the garden.